- C o m p e t i t i o n -

Tomorrow!! Competition!!
Last night practice till around 12am..
After practice home really tired, especially my leg..
Me still can't get the bra i need, argh!!!
It make me feel so fan, and make me feel rush too..
Cause tomorrow is the competition, morning 8am have to go studio,9am have to reach the place (TTDI Hall)..
Today need to work, night got class at 730pm till 930pm..
Really no time go buy, also cause of this abit ngmm song with ah t0i,cause last night call him ask for help and etc..
And me everytime got show performance or competition me also will rush, feel pressure..
But he don't know, so keep ask me what i rush and etc..
So make me feel so angry at the moment... *sigh..*
Keep thinking day take half day leave? Or night cancel class?
Like two also not work...So end up is me day try to back early abit,
Night cancel one class..So take some time go get it..
Hope everything will be fine and smooth...

About make-up also is my another problem..
Thought ask help from one of my partner,
cause she learn make-up before..quite pro..
But i scare she no time for me,
so i find mr charlene help me.. *hee..*
She say ok also, but me have to wake up at 6am..

The competition time quite weird, maybe alot dance gruop..
9am to 11am : Jamming Session
11am to 1pm : Rehearsal
1pm to 6pm : Competition
Dont know what time is our group le?

Wish me luck ya!!!
*hug*

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 4 -

Saturday me really busy, really never stop from morning until night..
Morning me woke up at 830am, cause class at 9am to 11am,
After class find ms lam then we go mid have our breakfast and buy present for my niece, Until 3pm then back to studio practice hard for me this coming saturday dance competiton,5something finished practice get back home thought can online rest while, suddenly get called from mr gan said come my house help me clean my diamond water machine of cause I have to stay beside him chat with him, cause is F.O.C),After he done already 6something then I have to get ready for go out dinner with ms lam, ms loh and mr choo..No time online also... T.T
We decide go Look Out Point there have our dinner (9something) we finished dinner at 10something all eat till very full so don't feel like go anywhere yam cha already, then me back to mr t0i house..ah t0i cause of got shoot at morning until 9something so never join us dinner and wait me at home, after done bath and everything then sleep at 12something...
Really tired, and also can say is a busy day for me..

The next day me sleep till 10am, but never wake up,
is keep lying on bed until 11something =p
Then only wake up bath change and get ready go my niece birthday party..
Stay there until 3something then go mid wanna get something,
but walk till me sien already also cant get the thing I wan...
But I get something from ah t0i =p is a bottle... *hehe..*
And ah t0i do something on it =D So I like it...
Wanna get few more cause ah t0i want me to change all the bottle me using now, cause is time to change already...



This saturday 29th august is the competiton le,
hope everything go smooth.. I work hard to keep fit one month,
got some result but.......spoil it..cause of pxxxxd,
will make my tummy fat and big.. *argh.. * kek hei...

My office computer cant online ah!!!
from last week wednesday until this monday!!!
Omg....Help!! No internet in office really sien and cham...
At first is cause of internet down so cant online,
but now I wondering izzit my boss block the internet already.. T.T
*sob sob*

- S a d / P a i n -

Last night he really tired..very tired...

I feel that he tired stress on everything...

Last night they cause of some problem argue again..

Last night he release all the thing he keep in heart to his family..

Finally........But he get hurt too..

Cause they don't understand his status and his job...

I saw he so down and sad I feel so useless, can't help anything...

And don't know what to say......

What I can do is give him a warm hug be by his side,

let him know that he still got me to support him..

But me wanna say sorry to him again..

Cause last time me just like his family, keep complain and lau gai..

Sorry.....I giving pressure too..So sorry...

He today still in the tired mood, I quite worry too...

Worry he keep all the thing to himself only,

I wish he share all the thing with me...

I keep tried my best to tam him smile and talk with him,

but he still the same, sound so tired...

I know he wanna calm down alone by himself,

but my heart really worry wanna stay beside him and accompany him...

So my heart really confuse....

Saw he so tired of it and sad, I feel sad too...

Saw him like this my tears lose control drop out,

feel so useless can't help anything just know how to cry...

'Mr.Lee...In my heart you are my super ah t0i Hero,

protact me, sayang me, care me, be ah t0i make me smile and etc,

I appreciate it.. =) '

But tonight he still in bad/tired mood ..

Even talk to me also don't have the mood,

I know he want me to leave him alone but my heart like.......

I'm as his girl friend so i should be by his side accompany him =(

Worry so.............

Really hope that he can feel better soon....

- H e l l o / W e i -

*Phone Ringing*
'Some people want it all, But i don't want nothing at all.
If it ain't you baby, If I ain't got you baby~~'

Answer :

'Wei....'

'Hello....'

'Yes?' =D

Lately my phone keep rang this song.. =)

Is him calling... *hehe..*

Finally.. =D

Finally we change our line already..

After change the line and phone plan we talk every day..

This is what I want to keep contact..

But he lazy down sms again..

Can not like this,

cause we got UNLIMITED FREE CALL

and UNLIMITED SMS..

Remember it ah t0i..

- S o r r y -

Sorry..
Sorry to my ah t0i darling...
This time is dear's fault..
I never control well,
i should not be like that make you worry..
Promise next time when i lau gai angry also will wait for you k? =D

This week he really busy with his work,
even weekend too...
In his busy week our relationship getting cold also,
cause we never really contact..
Only got some sms as report like that..
Don't like it..But no choice...
Last nite he only get some time come over my place dinner,
steamboat with my family..
That also is my house first time make steamboat dinner..
Aiyah...Forgot take some picture tim.. *ishk*
When he come then me faster ask him sunday working ant,
the ans is yes...Feel down and abit angry with it..
So start showing face and lau gai..
Then our arguement start again................
This time me really make dar angry and disappointed..
Sorry dar......

- R u b b i s h -

Is myself problem again? I think yes.....

I really find no way out,

feel abit suffer with it..

Can i tell?

But i'm not giving pressure..

Just wanna tell out let you know..

This week you really busy there,

You say you wan to talk..

But we have no time to talk..

This morning you realize that my sms getting bad,

short,sound fu hin and like dislike sms..

I feel abit warm, cause you realize it..

All that also cause of you...

I just follow.....

Cause of you busy, we seldom contact..

We getting cold too..

If i tell you this kind of thing,

you sure say that i'm giving pressure not support..

So should i? *argh..*

Weekend again...

Wanna ask how's the plan or will busy again or etc also wonder,

Waiting you to tell?

Sigh........I don't know what myself wanna to write also..

THE END..

- R a n d o m M o o d -

Why today everything like go slow?

Make me feel slow too...

What is my mood now?

Don't know...Maybe empty..

What my mind thinking?

Something, Someone..

Or maybe empty too..

What i want to do?

Don't know...

Why me empty also write?

Don't know too...

Why nightmare this few night?

Maybe think too much...

What my heart feel last few days?
'Jealousy heart'
I hate my jealousy heart, it make me feel uncomfortable..

- M o o d R e p o r t # 1 -

Last night after work straight away go studio practice dance,

we have to hurry up to done the dance so everything we go fast..

When we practice a turning step side to side that time

one of my partner suddenly fall down on floor hurt her knee also..

Ouch!!! Her knee's bone break it move to aside..

She damn geng! Move it back by herself...arhhh......Pain ah..

After she go see doctor and tell us bad news that she have to rest,

can't continue join the competition.. *sigh...*

Wasted..She a good dancer...

After practice ah t0i come pick up me and bring me go kepong dinner, (actually he want go there get stuff from his producer so bring me there dinner too)

We go Kepong Food Court there makan dinner, go there me sure will order this food..

CHEESE HOTDOG!! My favorite =p

Last time this food court is at kuchai lama,

so can eat always and anytime..

Somemore is made by my friend PC's aunty..

So go with him can got free cheese hotdog n uncle bob chicken eat..

But now move to kepong there already.. =( Quite far..

All the food in the Food Court is not bad quite nice 1,

so once i go there sure wanna eat alot thing..Want eat this and that...Ah t0i ask me to behave don't lose control =D *hahaha...*

Cause still on diet to slim down for the dance competition.. =p

So in the end me order a korean pork rice and 2 cheese hotdog *muahaha..*

Today me lunch with my parents also,

today made them at downstair wait me around 40min..

Cause before me want out boss ask me help him done 3 booklet,

*argh..* my heart was thinking 'shit..sure cant out on time already..' So end up me used 40min to done that 3 booklet.. (-_-'')

My dad face black black already when i get into car..

Lucky he understand it is my job...

So this is my lunch!!

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 3 -

Yeah....Last weekend me finally can sleep bao bao!!
Sleep till 11something only wake up =D
Cause me hurt my knee so cant really dance so my saturday morning class cancel.. Next week cannot like this already, have to work hard go class..
Saturday after wake up follow ah t0i go PRS casting,
stay till 4something then go studio, then home and yam cha and sleep..
Sunday sleep till ard 12pm also don't feel like want to wake up keep sleeping, then get a warm hug hug only awake =p
then ah t0i bring me go Brickfields eat breakfast..
Nice..I like to eat, next time take a picture and post it.. =)
After that follow ah t0i go out with his producer them..
They suddenly say wan go snooker so me just can follow..
That place cold and is smoking area so make my nose suffer, and make my eyes tired..When we going back that time me and ah t0i got some arguement again..
'same' thing..This time to choose to me slient,
cause me should not be like that too.....


And today one of my friend write me this..
I felt it so meaningfull..

'when 2 person first to get to know each other,
they see the nice side of each other;
when they start fall in, they see the best side of each other;
when they together, they see the real side of each other
when they hav misunderstand, they see the ugly side of each other;
when they are out of relation, they miss the nice side of each other where they first met. '

- M a l u + P a i n !!! -

=( argh.........Bad Luck!!
don't know why so bad luck, very 'lun chun'..
maybe keep thinking while walking out to get my lunch,
suddenly fall down PK on road.. =(
damn malu and pain!! cause fall down on the road there,
i think alot people saw it..
but i just can act like nothing fast fast stand up go aside..
faster check my hands and legs got bleeding or not,
cause i feel very pain after get up..
hands just got scratch not that deep so no bleeding,
legs never check cause still feel malu so fast fast go get food and leave..
Back to office go toilet wash hands and clean it,
then pull my pant up and see its bleeding... *swt*
Today me wear that pants quite long is cover my knee,
who know still get hurt bleeding somemore.. (= =')
My pants also got a small hole there.. *argh....*
PAIN ah!! Long time no this kind of feeling already,
after fall down feel myself like those little girl just learn how to walk and fall down.. *LoL...*
Tonight don't know still can go class or not,
cause pain..But i don't want cancel my class also...
How??? Anyone can help me? =(

He said me not support him and giving him pressure again..

Am i ? Maybe...

So sorry...I'm trying...

- S o m e M e m o r y -

Today like usual, me nothing do in office..
Just online do searching for called list,
and SAME! On msn and facebook.. *hehe...*
Usually me on facebook also is log in those game me like to play,
be 8, see anyone update new picture or not..
So me accidentally click in and saw some sweet wedding photo,
is upload by a senior..Feel so happy and surprise,
cause long time no contact with them already..
Miss them sooooo....They is me in secondary school 1st year cheerleading senior..
Now few of them get married and got their baby already,
from their picture i can feel that their happiness..
Don't why really happy meet back them at facebook there,
maybe last time in school they very sayang me
(that year me 14th, little girl =p)
They treat me as their little sister..
All the memory flashing back in my mind...

- i R e m e m b e r -

Tonight after class should be he come fetch me home,
cause Wed around studio here got pasar malam hard to get parking,
and he need to get his assignment from me and pass me the pen
so at noon me ask him after work come pick me up at studio there..
So me not driving to class, send by my dai sou..
But around 9pm, get his called by his producer phone number
cause his phone no battery..
He told me can't make it to come send me home at 10pm,
cause tomorrow suddenly got shoot,
when i heard about it me also worry how i home?
cause im not driving..he ask me to ask help from a friend but i don't want..
feel ma fan people and cause of some reason..
When i heard about it on the spot i really angry unhappy and ngmm song,
so i just answer 'never mind, fine..i find my way home..'
then hang up his called...

My dad usually is going to bed already, so no choice have to ask help from my brother..(sigh.....don't like ask help from him cause he same with my dad, keep ngam and ngam..)
So end up alone wait brother at studio outside around 20min,
at that time i keep calm down myself...
ask myself to relax not to angry, be a lovely and understanding girl..
And i got promise too.. I can't break it...
But i want something too... Be fair..
He cause of phone no battery so after me hang up no call or sms me anymore,
around 11something only use his friend phone to give me a call told me still busy there,
will be late home, after home only contact me....

Now my feeling is unhappy, but i never angry anymore..
This time i be guai and trying to understanding,
But maybe he don't think so....................
I remember what we say that day and the C.O.U..

*And i really don't wish/want to see those thing anymore..
do you know? and do you know why? i told you before...
I really selfish and sensitive...mind about it..
Me control-ing myself not to click and see after told you,
but heart keep wanna know you got listen it or not..
After click and see....still there...
Heart feel like drop down from high strair..
I also don't know why i so mind about it, mayb i jealous..
Now.......heart will keep wondering but me control not to see..
But...................*

- I Don't Like -

Just finished customize my blog, Fresh New Look!!

Nice...I like it so..=)

Maybe some other will do the same or mine same with other,

but i don't care, cause i can't control it or etc...

But someone's blog i CARE i MIND about it..

'I care what you post, I mind what u write there'

Although its long time ago, but i still mind about it..

It let me feel like you still keep those thing in your mind or etc..

I'm selfish, I'm sensetive..

Me accidentally click it and read some,

read your latest that post i know you saying something to me,

other is old post, 2 years ago...

You are writing your OLD memory/story,

And those WORD you using there,

like never use/say to me before or seldom...

(YES!! I'm jealous! I don't like,

i don't like same with other or why me don't have?)

My heart feel abit hard feeling on it..

When i ask you, you say half edit..

mean half is true right?

And i can't know which one is half edit, which one is half true..

I'll think much or imagine (automatically)

So me ask you to remove it since all is passed,

but you sound like wanna keep it..

I know is NOTHING there..

But my heart feel not nice...

Hope you understand...

But......

You never...............

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 2 -

Another week again!!
Last weekend from friday night be with ah t0i until mon,
play too much with ah t0i also so make me feel abit lazy =p
last weekend like is OUR last weekend,
cause ah t0i finished his final exam already now also start his training le...
so the time will become unstable unfix...

Hmmm.....yesterday on leave plan go body check and go imbi buy medic
(also is stay one more day with ah t0i la =p)
but all the clinic also full house!! so me don't want stay there wait
(alot virus =x)
today back to office work, boss like angry already...*scare scare*
Sigh............
was thinking wanna resign change work or not,
but don't dare simple make decision...
also don't know myself can survival over here how long...
anyway....will try my best to work hard to survival over here..

AUGUST!!!
28th August coming soon!!
mean my belly dance competition date is getting near,
our dance not yet complete and me not yet keep fit too =(

so worry....

Have to control HARD and HARD!!! Do not eat too much!!

but last night after dinner at ah t0i house not long then me lying on bed

watch 'Sin Chan' and eating Rocky =p

*Hehe....quite enjoy with it =p but FAT!*

*Can't sleep without him at HIS place..So Warm*