- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 26 -

sigh.....really moody now..cause of job and money..

really dont like this job, so decide to resign get another job..

but should i resign now or when i get new job?

i really dont like insurance this job..

it make me feel dizzy headache..

maybe u may say me lazy...

i wish to focus on my dance life when i still young..

day job for me is only $$ no other..

maybe at the fisrt me already wrong step,

never think properly...feel regret..

but the time is cannot get back..

*headache*

last saturday end up go singapore with him and his sis,

but it very tired..3something reach there then walk around get food eat..

but i get some new toys there also :D

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 25 -

today is the second day me to work at the new place Tmn Desa..
feel so difference, all the work i need to do at there also difference..
but those people there not bad quite nice..
but i keep feel not cope, and dont really like the job..
will try to work few month if like it will continue,
if really dont like it will look for new job again..

yesterday wanna update blog, but have no time..
cause first day work, the feeling just like a kid first day school
so have to be guai, dont really dare to online..
at night thought ask someone to fetch me when i finish work,
accompany me dinner and share my feeling with him..
but he come with a tired face (no choice i understand) talk what with him also blur..
back to his place but something happened, so my dinner and chatting time also delay to 9something..in the end back to my place ta pau only..
about the chat time dont have already...

and today he told me a bad news about the trip,
he told me last night he will go singapore trip with his sis this weekend,
ask me want to join or not of cause im happy..cause long time no go there really wish to go..
but in the end told me next time bring me go cause car not place for me...
when i heard it......my heart from high drop into the deep hole..
my tears just like a waterfall..
but what can i do or say? i just wondering if you want to bring me along why dont think another way and not just give me a called tell me that?
maybe is me not understanding again, dont know what your family think about it..
so now keep think alot..maybe yes..i'm a outsider..
sometimes your word hurt me but you dont know..
sometimes your attitude make me feel sad but you dont know..
maybe is me not understand again..

- U n t i t l e -

yes..is me again..
is my problem again, is me finding problem again..
me giving word again...
this time i lazy to talk about it,
lazy to find friend talk with it..
usually me will get some close or nice to talk friend to do complain and etc..
to let myself feel better..
but this time me really lazy to tell...
cause i feel no point...
sigh.............
everytime tell the same thing i also feel myself fan and sien..
what i want and wish to get also say alot time before..
now lazy to say already...
im really tired with it.......
my fault, my problem..
is on me...

SELFISH..


Thanks,
Night.