- i R e m e m b e r -

Tonight after class should be he come fetch me home,
cause Wed around studio here got pasar malam hard to get parking,
and he need to get his assignment from me and pass me the pen
so at noon me ask him after work come pick me up at studio there..
So me not driving to class, send by my dai sou..
But around 9pm, get his called by his producer phone number
cause his phone no battery..
He told me can't make it to come send me home at 10pm,
cause tomorrow suddenly got shoot,
when i heard about it me also worry how i home?
cause im not driving..he ask me to ask help from a friend but i don't want..
feel ma fan people and cause of some reason..
When i heard about it on the spot i really angry unhappy and ngmm song,
so i just answer 'never mind, fine..i find my way home..'
then hang up his called...

My dad usually is going to bed already, so no choice have to ask help from my brother..(sigh.....don't like ask help from him cause he same with my dad, keep ngam and ngam..)
So end up alone wait brother at studio outside around 20min,
at that time i keep calm down myself...
ask myself to relax not to angry, be a lovely and understanding girl..
And i got promise too.. I can't break it...
But i want something too... Be fair..
He cause of phone no battery so after me hang up no call or sms me anymore,
around 11something only use his friend phone to give me a call told me still busy there,
will be late home, after home only contact me....

Now my feeling is unhappy, but i never angry anymore..
This time i be guai and trying to understanding,
But maybe he don't think so....................
I remember what we say that day and the C.O.U..

*And i really don't wish/want to see those thing anymore..
do you know? and do you know why? i told you before...
I really selfish and sensitive...mind about it..
Me control-ing myself not to click and see after told you,
but heart keep wanna know you got listen it or not..
After click and see....still there...
Heart feel like drop down from high strair..
I also don't know why i so mind about it, mayb i jealous..
Now.......heart will keep wondering but me control not to see..
But...................*

- I Don't Like -

Just finished customize my blog, Fresh New Look!!

Nice...I like it so..=)

Maybe some other will do the same or mine same with other,

but i don't care, cause i can't control it or etc...

But someone's blog i CARE i MIND about it..

'I care what you post, I mind what u write there'

Although its long time ago, but i still mind about it..

It let me feel like you still keep those thing in your mind or etc..

I'm selfish, I'm sensetive..

Me accidentally click it and read some,

read your latest that post i know you saying something to me,

other is old post, 2 years ago...

You are writing your OLD memory/story,

And those WORD you using there,

like never use/say to me before or seldom...

(YES!! I'm jealous! I don't like,

i don't like same with other or why me don't have?)

My heart feel abit hard feeling on it..

When i ask you, you say half edit..

mean half is true right?

And i can't know which one is half edit, which one is half true..

I'll think much or imagine (automatically)

So me ask you to remove it since all is passed,

but you sound like wanna keep it..

I know is NOTHING there..

But my heart feel not nice...

Hope you understand...

But......

You never...............

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 2 -

Another week again!!
Last weekend from friday night be with ah t0i until mon,
play too much with ah t0i also so make me feel abit lazy =p
last weekend like is OUR last weekend,
cause ah t0i finished his final exam already now also start his training le...
so the time will become unstable unfix...

Hmmm.....yesterday on leave plan go body check and go imbi buy medic
(also is stay one more day with ah t0i la =p)
but all the clinic also full house!! so me don't want stay there wait
(alot virus =x)
today back to office work, boss like angry already...*scare scare*
Sigh............
was thinking wanna resign change work or not,
but don't dare simple make decision...
also don't know myself can survival over here how long...
anyway....will try my best to work hard to survival over here..

AUGUST!!!
28th August coming soon!!
mean my belly dance competition date is getting near,
our dance not yet complete and me not yet keep fit too =(

so worry....

Have to control HARD and HARD!!! Do not eat too much!!

but last night after dinner at ah t0i house not long then me lying on bed

watch 'Sin Chan' and eating Rocky =p

*Hehe....quite enjoy with it =p but FAT!*

*Can't sleep without him at HIS place..So Warm*

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 1 -

Another blue monday...
and today also is ah t0i start fighting with the WAR first day,
remember not to push yourself too hard..just will get negative...
relax abit...and take care don't get sick..
Good Luck!!!

Last weekend nothing special,
cause of ah t0i busy with study and me busy with belly dance practice..
but this time having period very suffer...PAIN.. =(
cause of the fruit rojak..make me pain and feel uncomfortable few day..
Sunday went shopping with Ms.Charlene, she keep buying and me just look around..
but end up also get a dress la..hehe.....

About dance class there, keep thinking new step for my class and the belly dance..
this time join belly dance competition again,
with my studio belly dance teacher and ballet teacher...
we left not much time to plan the step, so we have to spend more time on it
but all of us also got our own class so the time hard to match also..
sometimes opinion not same also, so it make us getting more hard to done the dance..
sigh....................

- G a n b a t e h -

Support! Support!! Support!!!
ah t0i final exam coming on next week,
so he hard working to finish his assignment and study hard for his final exam..
*ganbateh* but have to take care too..
me can't do anything, i think the only thing i can do is be guai...
not to disturb, lau gai and etc.. =)
this week his schedule full already..study study study...
Hmmm......after all this my ah t0i graduate le.. =)
its our NEW LIFE begin too...
ah t0i will start working, so everything will got ABIT different..
have to face it...we will work it out..
everything be fine n smooth..

And also ganbateh for myself,
work hard on dance class and work there..
teach more class and practice for the belly dance competition..
*ganbateh*
and im still confuse, which one i should get?
and when is the right timing? argh..........

- E m p t y -

Hmmm....
Last weekend nothing special, sat follow ah t0i and his producer Ang go everywhere buy thing for sun ang's wedding photo shoot..Sun cause of ah t0i not sure will shoot until what time so dont dare bring me go, scare will late home then next day me cant wake up go work...
So me just guai guai stay home and wanna go carrefour buy some stuff to stock at home,
but mom suddenly not free cant go so me go alone =(

My brain feel so empty now...
but actually i got alot thing need to plan, but my brain like so empty..
like don't want to think don't know what to do...*argh.....*
so stuck...like wanna do all thing in the same time but can't..
dance step? music? belly competiton idea? my class timetable? new student?
keep feel like not enough time and etc...
NEED SOME IDEA!!!!!

Coming weekend same with last week too, will be nothing special and stay home..
cause this week he going shoot again..

- L o a d i n g -

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Trying to be a lovely girl,

not to make people hate/angry/or don't like me..

Keep quiet...

...and...

SMILE =)