- U p d a t e -

Skip few week never update this blog,
and today free abit so update now...

finally me resign insurance that job,
cause really dont like it..
and i off 2 month already,
really need to back to work and earn money..
now decide to work at kai yea's company as sales position,
try to learn something new..
and the offer is not bad, and i need income
so i have to take it..
before this me almost everyday stuck in the bad mood,
stress, down, confuse, regret..
now settle down already..

but another problem pop up,
*sigh....*
what i can do for it?

now this few day also busy to clean up the small room,
almost done, and my place got a new member to join in (temporary)..
don't know is good or bad..
same thing, hope everything will be fine..

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 26 -

sigh.....really moody now..cause of job and money..

really dont like this job, so decide to resign get another job..

but should i resign now or when i get new job?

i really dont like insurance this job..

it make me feel dizzy headache..

maybe u may say me lazy...

i wish to focus on my dance life when i still young..

day job for me is only $$ no other..

maybe at the fisrt me already wrong step,

never think properly...feel regret..

but the time is cannot get back..

*headache*

last saturday end up go singapore with him and his sis,

but it very tired..3something reach there then walk around get food eat..

but i get some new toys there also :D

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 25 -

today is the second day me to work at the new place Tmn Desa..
feel so difference, all the work i need to do at there also difference..
but those people there not bad quite nice..
but i keep feel not cope, and dont really like the job..
will try to work few month if like it will continue,
if really dont like it will look for new job again..

yesterday wanna update blog, but have no time..
cause first day work, the feeling just like a kid first day school
so have to be guai, dont really dare to online..
at night thought ask someone to fetch me when i finish work,
accompany me dinner and share my feeling with him..
but he come with a tired face (no choice i understand) talk what with him also blur..
back to his place but something happened, so my dinner and chatting time also delay to 9something..in the end back to my place ta pau only..
about the chat time dont have already...

and today he told me a bad news about the trip,
he told me last night he will go singapore trip with his sis this weekend,
ask me want to join or not of cause im happy..cause long time no go there really wish to go..
but in the end told me next time bring me go cause car not place for me...
when i heard it......my heart from high drop into the deep hole..
my tears just like a waterfall..
but what can i do or say? i just wondering if you want to bring me along why dont think another way and not just give me a called tell me that?
maybe is me not understanding again, dont know what your family think about it..
so now keep think alot..maybe yes..i'm a outsider..
sometimes your word hurt me but you dont know..
sometimes your attitude make me feel sad but you dont know..
maybe is me not understand again..

- U n t i t l e -

yes..is me again..
is my problem again, is me finding problem again..
me giving word again...
this time i lazy to talk about it,
lazy to find friend talk with it..
usually me will get some close or nice to talk friend to do complain and etc..
to let myself feel better..
but this time me really lazy to tell...
cause i feel no point...
sigh.............
everytime tell the same thing i also feel myself fan and sien..
what i want and wish to get also say alot time before..
now lazy to say already...
im really tired with it.......
my fault, my problem..
is on me...

SELFISH..


Thanks,
Night.

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 24 -

Last few week keep sick then went to do body check..
Get the report already..
Phew....Lucky dont have any big Problem..

But got few part need to take care :
1) cholesterol abit high
cannot eat so much prawn and egg =(
both also is my fav.
2) blood pressure abit low
need to rest more..
3) calcium not really enough
need to take more milk
but i dont drink milk
then doc say can take soya or CHEESE =D
so i can eat more cheese cake! *haha*
4) why will always headache cause of
weather no good blood pressure abit low and im tension *LoL*
need to let myself relax, dont be so stress..
tension?!
when ah t0i heard doc say this he want to laugh also..
wondering where is my tension come from?
cause of online play game it make me feel tension!? *haha..*

Last week not really feel good,
cause always argue with him again..
Sometimes he really make me feel so tired..
Cause always need me to repeat again and again..
And sometimes the way he talk to me or say to me make me feel sad also,
like his heart dont have me, im not that important..
But i know he is fighting for his future,
but cant just left me like this..
I want you to BALANCE it..

That day cousin ask me May wanna go Redang or not..
ah t0i also ok with it..
yeah..... can go there relax and take more picture =D

- Is Sick Again -

Sick again.. =(
Keep not feeling well headache dizzy faint vomit..
Finally went to do body check up,
need to wait one week for the result..

Headache about my dance class again,
last night is my first aerobic class..Not that good..
I feel failed to teach aerobic...
Need to do more practice on it.. =(

This two day keep sweet with him at first argue as ending..
Why? What happen?
Everytime also cause of some small matter..
Is he still not understand me or me too lau gai?
Sigh.....
Keep thinking a solution way..
Wanna talk nicely..Feel like we got different mind...
He dont deal with me, i dont like his way..
Dont want to keep like this, so what can i do is shut not to lau gai..
But can i hold it? not to lau gai?
Maybe i too sticky....
I dont know what to do..
Speechless...
But just want you to know i care about you..

- W e e k l y R e p o r t # 23 -

Is mid night now,
heavy rain outside,
and me
on his bed with my laptop and wireless mouse :D
Doing my thing..

What am i doing?
Facebook..
Blog-ing..
Searching nice thing around.. :D

And ah t0i at aside doing his editing work, *haha..*
so pity...

This week time feel like pass so fast,
last few day got back the bad feeling,
like those negative mind and etc..
But finally today he give me some warm..

We club at saturday night cause of Mr.Gan birthday,
super tired after club..
cause friday night we sleep at 2am,
and he saturday woke up at 6am and me 8am
cause of work and dance class..

And today afternoon we went to mid valley makan breakfast
and go carrefour get something,
evening back to home watch DVD..
Feel like long time no be like this already..

Sometimes i do really feel good and warm to be with him =)

Is time to sleep now..
Good Night *Hug*